I admit that I’ve lived in a victim mentality for most of my life. I shared earlier about experiencing the trauma of being sexually abused by a family member as a child. Unfortunately I let these traumas define me and control how I experienced my life.
Since I saw myself as a victim, I was influenced by other people’s opinions. I believed that their opinions defined me because I did not see that I was worthy. From this place of unworthiness and guilt I attracted situations that reinforced my shame. This included emotional breakdown, ongoing financial challenges and experiencing homelessness that led to living in a shelter.
These patterns continued until I made the conscious decision to transform my money story to the better. As a result I began to look at the deep rooted issues that caused my ongoing money challenges. I saw that the trauma of sexual abuse led to the money problems.
Money is the product of the merger of masculine and feminine energies, just as the birth of a child. Since I experienced sexual abuse, I had a negative view of masculine energy, my own masculine energy or anyone else’s. So I experienced challenges being around masculine energy.
I have done a lot of energy work during the past 18 months healing my experience with masculine energy. I chose to work with the amazing Drew Ryder, an Emotional Freedom Technique coach, who has shifted my experience with the masculine greatly. Yet I still saw myself as a victim of sexual abuse.
Then I had the radical thought. What if I no longer saw myself as a victim of sexual abuse? What if the sexual abuse was part of the bigger picture that equipped me to fulfill my calling on the planet?
I know that I am called to equip and empower women to walk in their greatness. What if I realized that I consciously chose to experience sexual abuse, the financial challenges, the depression and anxiety? What if I chose to be the catalyst to show women what is possible when they stand in their power?
On a soul level, I realize that I chose this path. I chose to experience these challenges so that I can show women the way out. Many women experience sexual abuse, financial challenges and mental health concerns. They feel lost and alone. I know that and can speak to them as someone who is like them. I can show them the way out.
So what does my new story look like?
I am an empowered, dynamic woman who is creating a delicious business as a copywriter. I am using my marketing and communications skills to promote other businesses and help entrepreneurs achieve their goals. It’s a perfect match for someone with an extensive social service background.
As the Queen of Copywriting I am creating a team of copywriters, training other copywriters to serve other entrepreneurs. I choose to surround myself with other like-minded entrepreneurs who are making a difference. I choose to focus on the awesome possibilities of life, instead of seeing myself as a victim of what shows up in my life.
I choose to create a life where I fulfill my dream of travelling to Africa and discover the area where my family came from. I choose to move to Nova Scotia and live on the waterfront in a small town. I choose to improve my health and perform with an African dance group. I choose to take voice lessons again.
2015 is the year that I wake up to my true calling as a creator who equips other women to be creators of their life. I choose to make a difference in women’s lives.
As you watch Katy Perry’s video “Wide Awake” ask yourself “Do you need to wake up to the truth of your calling?” Let 2015 be the year that you wake up to your magnificence.
“The Queen of Copywriting”